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Post by Tsubarisu Hotaka on Dec 24, 2007 18:34:52 GMT -4
I couldnt believe what I was hearing. I had the utmost in the Lady Tsubasa. I thought she was the only one in Heaven who felt the way I did about hell, but even then, That was the way I FELT back THEN. Now things were different. Especially now that I found out a bit more about Heaven's History. I scratched my head in frsutration.It would seem that I had ben decieved since the moment I arrived here, but that was the past, the time to make right what was wrong had come and i would take full advantage of this opportunity.
"Continue on Please." I said to Sanada.
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Post by Sanada Tomo on Dec 26, 2007 15:11:40 GMT -4
Tomoyo looked away from Hotaka with the next bit.
"I began to be involved with Chiyo at that time. I won't go into details about the relationship between your Ha-ou and I, because you will never truly understand, but I loved her for a long time. Only Tsubasa kept me from her. Told me that were not allowed to marry because she was being trained to be my replacement. That she did not want her closeness to me to inspire some sort of loyalty in her for me instead of Heaven. I could not afford this risk; not with my apprentice. At the time, the other Heavenly Kings agreed; most of them were single at that time, and so to contemplate the same fate for me did not bother them--they liked being alone, after all, so why shouldn't I?
"This is after exchanges of crowns were made--after Yamashiro had passed his crown to Setsuna; after Akito had passed his crown to Inu; and after Satori had passed his crown down to Osaka. Tsubasa saw this as an opportunity to be the best of friends with the new Kings, to win them over to her cause. Her process of thinking was logical, I must say. To those raised with the mindset of never being like Mortals, it would seem normal, some of the things that she proposed.
"And so I could not marry my beloved Chiyo. It was then that I began to wonder about my romantic past--In part, I had been using Chiyo to get over not remembering my past, for not being able to recall the centaur I had in my dreams every night. The one that I have never been able to find. I began to wonder if I did not really love Chiyo; if I was simply using her to fill a hole in my heart. I was a rare Angel, you see, one who is not able to see into the fate of her past life. I can see nothing other than that single piece that comes to me in a dream. Nothing else.
"It is against law in Heaven to try to associate with a past you don't remember or understand through physical force. This is a reasonable law, to an extent; there was fear that past life as a Human would strike a blow to the angelic psyche--that it would cause an angel to stray from the rules. We did not want that. Remember, we were still paranoid of the effect of the Shijin, wondering if there was some sort of curse on our race because we subdued our creators.
"It was with this law that Tsubasa cast me down from Heaven. I began to use my magic--for in the old times I held power over Light--to channel the essence of my soul to sift through for memories of the past. Because my venue was magical and not physical, I was under the impression that I would not be breaking the law. But Tsubasa had been watching. She had known that I wanted to badly to see my past. She had been a friend of mine at one time, after all, and she knew that this was my desire even if she did not know the measures I was taking to make it so. Chiyo knew nothing about this; she was surprised when Tsubasa arrested me."
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Post by Tsubarisu Hotaka on Jan 18, 2008 11:02:29 GMT -4
This tale was indeed very treacherous. I had no idea this sort of thing would have ever come to pass. I knew that Sanada wouldnt lie about something like this....It was her own past. I really had to do something about this. I couldnt let something like this just happen
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Post by Sanada Tomo on Jan 18, 2008 14:10:15 GMT -4
It was in this portion of the story that Tomoyo began to speak a little more vaguely; near the end, where her own power after being cast down came into play. She didn't really think that her personal feats or how she accomplished them were any of his business.
"It was after she tried me, after she pressured all of the other Kings into agreeing that I was guilty that I was cast out of Heaven. It was after that, when I refused to live on Earth and lose all of my Magic, all of my power, that I created Hell." Her voice began to trail away. "It wasn't until I created Hell that I realized that there was a physical change in those who willingly left Heaven to reside there. I am still not sure what magical side-effect allows our wings to turn black when we "Fall"--it is something that I would have to conduct much reasoning to discover, though I am sure that it has to do with my magic--but this is the way that things are.
"I shifted forms after I fell, used my shapeshifting abilities to take on the guise of a man. Heaven did not know who I was for a while, that had been their old King--if you ask me, that is what the root of the problem is. I am what keeps Tsubasa from her goal of a tightly ruled Heaven; as a long as there is an alternative for those who do not want to follow the rules, then there will always be rebellion. On the other side of the coin, I think there are two groups in Heaven of the old generation, of the first: Those who forgive me for abandoning them to rule a new Kingdom, and those who do not. My fall was not announced formally. I had just vanished, they said, and no one knew where I had gone. Chiyo did not even know where I had gone. Had she been told by any of the Kings, she would have looked for me. She would have found me. She would have loved me. And everything would have been different. I would have never created Hell. Most likely Chiyo and I would have been married; I would have loved her more deeply than perhaps even my current husband. But alas, love and myself are not something that have gotten along smoothly--even in my past lives, from what I have been able to remember.
"But that is no matter for the likes of yourself. Heaven felt betrayed when they discovered who I was. However, because of who I was, Chiyo, who had replaced me in Heaven--after all, I had trained her--was sure that I would not have attacked Heaven if I could avoid it. There was peace.
"But Tsubasa was not yet through with her tricks. She was sure that I was out for revenge, because I had not lost my powers like Chikara and Jiishita, and she launched a campaign about how we were vile creatures, to be feared and beaten into submission. She did not bother to announce that we were one in the same; that Fallen or Upright Angels were of the same race, no--such a thing could not be allowed to slip into the public--we could not be.
"However, hiding the truth only lasted until many began to leave Heaven of their own accord. And after it was established that, for the most part, Falling was a choice, and not something forced upon the people, Tsubasa insisted that those who chose to Fall were traitors to the Greath Realm of Heaven, to all that they had worked hard to free themselves from. It was these lies that began to boil the blood between Heaven and Hell. Older generations of Heaven were no longer in charge, and the younger, newer generation were constantly being taught by at least half of the Heavenly Kings that we, the Fallen, were a disgrace. That we needed to die simply for the dishonour that we put upon their names. The Kings that taught this were Tsubasa, of course, Sasuke, Inu, and several of the Kings that followed Osaka's forfeit of the throne and subsequent death.
"That is why there is war. There is war because Heaven was taught that there was War. That the Fallen are wrong. That we deserve to die. It is because of all of this that we are targeted. And we will not cease to defend ourselves, which is only twisted into word of more treachery. When Tsubasa died, I thought that such things were over. But she had infected so many of the young, the promising..."
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Post by Tsubarisu Hotaka on Jan 23, 2008 9:51:12 GMT -4
"Then I guess it is up to me to do something." I said boldly, the sparkle of resolve in my eyes.
I simply wanted to do the right thing. Helping those who neeed to be helped, defending the defenseless.
I thought momentarily taking in all the things that I had heard. I should probably speak to Rei before I made any decisions. I had to have the full story. THEN I would speak with Tsubasa. I wanted to hear EVERYONES side of the story. Only then could a judge make an accurate call on the next course of action.
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Post by Sanada Tomo on Jan 24, 2008 17:25:40 GMT -4
Tomoyo narrowed her eyes and said in mocking tones, "Yes, it's always up to Heaven to do something. Why don't you leave well enough alone? We should all leave well enough alone. Do you want to do something, Hotaka? Why don't you keep Tsubasa to yourselves, so that she can fuck up your government, and leave mine alone. We Hellion beings like the way that they are. Why must you Uprights always have to make a change? Why must something always be better? Just leave things the way that they are. There are no huge conflicts between Heaven and Hell at this present moment. Leave well enough alone. Heaven is in disarray; why don't you work on getting it back its feet? Work on yourselves, change yourselves, before you make decisions that affect so many others who could do without your judgment!"
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Post by Tsubarisu Hotaka on Jan 25, 2008 11:49:41 GMT -4
"Ok." I said visibly holding back the words that I truly meant to say.
I would do what I could to help Heaven. I would for once make an attempt to do things my way. You had to be fair in situations like these, because you never knew how hard you were going to step on someone if you didnt. The plan should always be to help however you could, whenever you could.
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Post by Sanada Tomo on Jan 29, 2008 10:25:11 GMT -4
Tsubarisu was clearly holding back judgment. Tomoyo had known him for too long to think that his opinion was summed up with the casual "ok."
The Yami-ou was through here. She had told her story to the extent that she would allow herself to go with Tsubarisu. She had shown the pain that she felt at her separation of Heaven and how badly she had not wanted it to happen. She had gotten out how she truly felt about the situation. She hoped that it was enough. Despite her resonance, she was truly not lying about any of it, and she hoped that her good rapport with Tsubarisu Hotaka up to this point would actually spur him to remember her words, or perhaps record them to be an addition to Heaven' one-sided history.
"I've told you what you wanted, " Tomoyo said through gritted teeth, still determined to be polite to this angel. "May I leave now?" This was the first time that she had disliked speaking to a Heavenly King so much, and she hoped that she would never have to recite the tale again. She did not want Heaven to take pity on her for her past--she wanted Heaven to see that what she was doing was right, and that she was not being selfish or cruel.
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Post by Tsubarisu Hotaka on Jan 29, 2008 11:29:26 GMT -4
"Your help is very much appreciated. You may indeed leave." I said with a brilliant smile.
The feelings I had, when I felt like something good was about to happen. When I felt like some change in the world was going to happen. When a wrong was about to righted, by my own hand. Those are things that made me truly happy. I stood bowed and showed Sanada to the door.
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