Post by Uesugi Yomi on May 13, 2010 15:27:54 GMT -4
Here was was, lying down, staring up at the sky like she'd had no choice but to do for a the past few weeks. She was damaged beyond belief. She can't remember the last time that she had been taken apart this badly. She would not make excuses for herself; she knew why she was in this predicament--because she was still weak. She was still in a lesser state than her previous body had been. She had trained and she knew how to fight. She could carry her weapons and wield them with expertise. She was agile. She could move quickly with both her body and her weapons. She'd spent a considerable amount of time training her body to once again be immune to her various poisons. That was a great improvement as it meant that she could resume on her experiments.
However, her body's endurance...it wasn't enough. That Dragon had almost ripped her to shreds. Had she suffered any more damage she would be dead again. Not that dying was that bad, so long as it was done quickly, like her last life. Tomo's strike had been true. And she had been glad for it. No pain. No agony. Just death. Rest.
But she was in pain now. She attempted to shrug it off, but that was difficult. Despite her condition, however, she would not complain. She was getting care from both Avalon--Tomoyo's personal assistant and healer--and Jiishita's own doctors. She had offered to pay them, but they declined and she was in condition to debate that decision.
She hated being alone. It gave her far too much time to think. She didn't like being alone with her thoughts. That's why she was always busy. Always working, always performing some experiment. If she was focused on something else, she wouldn't have to worry about her thoughts catching up with her. Her thoughts always went back to Seki, and goddamn it, she was tired of thinking about him, of her decisions. His decisions. She shook her head. She could feel the emotions creeping up on her already. They always followed the thoughts. She didn't want them. She wished her feelings could kiss her ass, because she couldn't give less than an eighth of a fuck about them. She would be better off without them.
She tried to toss, and a wave of pain rushed over her. She gritted her teeth and bared it. The pain would keep her mind off of Seki. Off of her life. What she had done with it. What she was doing with it. Where had the time gone? She was millennia old and she was still alone. Still bitter. Still angry.
"God. Fucking. Dammit." She gritted, tears forming from the agony she felt as she struggled to roll over, her abdomen's pain not enough to keep the thoughts away. "FUCK!" she yelled. "Someone fucking get me out of here!"
She hated being alone. There needed to be another person in this room. She knew herself. She couldn't fight off her own thoughts.
However, her body's endurance...it wasn't enough. That Dragon had almost ripped her to shreds. Had she suffered any more damage she would be dead again. Not that dying was that bad, so long as it was done quickly, like her last life. Tomo's strike had been true. And she had been glad for it. No pain. No agony. Just death. Rest.
But she was in pain now. She attempted to shrug it off, but that was difficult. Despite her condition, however, she would not complain. She was getting care from both Avalon--Tomoyo's personal assistant and healer--and Jiishita's own doctors. She had offered to pay them, but they declined and she was in condition to debate that decision.
She hated being alone. It gave her far too much time to think. She didn't like being alone with her thoughts. That's why she was always busy. Always working, always performing some experiment. If she was focused on something else, she wouldn't have to worry about her thoughts catching up with her. Her thoughts always went back to Seki, and goddamn it, she was tired of thinking about him, of her decisions. His decisions. She shook her head. She could feel the emotions creeping up on her already. They always followed the thoughts. She didn't want them. She wished her feelings could kiss her ass, because she couldn't give less than an eighth of a fuck about them. She would be better off without them.
She tried to toss, and a wave of pain rushed over her. She gritted her teeth and bared it. The pain would keep her mind off of Seki. Off of her life. What she had done with it. What she was doing with it. Where had the time gone? She was millennia old and she was still alone. Still bitter. Still angry.
"God. Fucking. Dammit." She gritted, tears forming from the agony she felt as she struggled to roll over, her abdomen's pain not enough to keep the thoughts away. "FUCK!" she yelled. "Someone fucking get me out of here!"
She hated being alone. There needed to be another person in this room. She knew herself. She couldn't fight off her own thoughts.